~ ScreenShot ~

Screenshot status whatsapp...saya dan Mr.F...

Hehehehehe...tu je nak bagitau...mekaseh Mr.F sebab meniru status cikyaa...die kate status tu comel so die tiru...Ni haritu lagi...baru teringat nak update....

:)

~ GaLat ~

heLLo everibadi~~~~ eh eh...ade orang ke kan....hakhakhakhak~

banyak nyeee sawang yang melilau...lame cikyaa xmai ceq mai kan...hekhekhekhek ~

cikyaa busy..ngn praktikal...dengan malas bukk laptopnye...mcm2 la kan...tapi harini...sebab ade kisah...saje la update jugak....

sebelum tu...praktikal cikyaa mcm bese..anak2 pun makin manja....siap panggil "ummi" lagi kan...rase nak kawen...oooppsss~ !!

okey ceritanya begini....alkisahhhhhh~

semalam Mr.F mesej cikyaa..bagitahu die on the way ke perlis...cikyaa pun mcm..."WOW" kan....ingatkan kenape la die ke Perlis..rupenye sepupu die kawen...so die drive ke Perlis...dan die bertanyakan soklan cuper cemas kepada cikyaa.....

F: org otw ke Perlis...nnti nak singgah jumpe..liya nak x?

Y: errr....susahnye nak jawab soklan ni....tahu la parents org tu cmne...kene mintak izin dlu..

F: nnti org kol la...kol ayah ea? hehehe...

Y: ehhh jgn2...mcm bahaya je....alaaa..cmne ea....kang mule la org pikir satu malam cmni ni...sobsss...

F: hehehehe...saje jela...*driving*

so die pun x balas dah msej...sebb driving...dan cikyaa pun tetido sebb tahu die akan overnight driving...pagi buta terbangun tu tnye Mr.F dah sampai ke belum...dan die pun x balas...risau ade jugak tapi positif....cikyaa xlena tido..tebangun kol 12.30...kol 2.30...kol 3.45..kol 4.30...kol 5.15..sampai kol 6.30 bangun mandi....and kol 9 tadi baru die balas msej cikyaa bgthu die lost dan tido dalam kete je....but die dah berjaya reached tempat dituju la....dan bncg la sal isu jumpe tu lgi....

Y: die balik hari ni ke esok?

F: kite makan same lepas tu org balik la...kan?

Y: errrr...dapat ke makan same...? :(

F: kenape...rase2 xdapat ea?

Y: entahla...die cube la kol ibu....kot2 ibu bagi...nak jugak jumpe...dah alang2 awak ke sini...(terjujur)

F: oooooo...ade jugak la rase tu sebenarnye....hahahaha...gotcha ~

Y: ishhh...mano adoo...rase besalah je...lalalalalalala~

F: xpela...rasenye elok jumpe depan2 ngn parents liya and mintak izin...rasenye kite keluar dekat negeri sembilan nanti...boleh ea?

Y: hurmmm....susahnye la cmni...tpi awak mmg thu..dgn sy mmg susah nak kelua2..nanti awak x bosan ke dgn sy?

F: ishhh...apelak cmtu..banyak mase lagi..nanti dh kawen kan ngadap hari2...hehehe...

Y: ishh..die yang kate nak jumpe..org rase besalah la...depress ni....ikot la..mane2 je...

F: xyah nak over sgt la..ni org nak marah ni...pikir banyak kenapo...lagipun malas la nak jumpe liya...saje je pun...hahahaha...

Y: kurg ajaa..malas jumpe? hamboihh..cekik kang thu la...

and terus tukar topik laen...btw Mr.F...cikyaa tahu awak ckp cmtu sebb awak nak kurgkan rase bersalah saya....walaupun sy tahu awak mmg nak jumpe...untuk tengok org yg awak panggil gemuk tembam pendek sume ni...but thats the rule...permission untuk jumpe tu kene dpt dari parents...which kene tahan la...

but one thing...betul ke awak dah berubah? saya dapat rasakan bende tu...tapi pada masa same...perasaan takot tu menyelubungi diri sy dalam sgt....im touched with ur way...ur affection...im touched..really...but cikyaa takot kalau2 bnde ni temporary je dgn cikyaa...but i hope it will b forever...aminnn...

dan harini jugak seorang sedare meninggal...dan Mr.F bersama ahli keluarga yg kenduri ke Perlis td terpaksa balik ptg td jugak...so mmg hkmahnye mmg xsmpat nak jmpe la sbnrnye....so drive carefully ye Mr.F....

thanks Allah for this happiness...and hopefully it remains forever...amin..:)

maybe I will have my first love to be my last love of my life....aminn..:)

~ InDaH ~

Haaaa...setelah lame menghilang kan? Kihkihkih...minggu ni minggu yg busy untuk cikyaa..dn in fact..bulan ni...so minggu lepas pensyarah cikyaa dh dtg observe...lega la sikit...

So, apa yg indah kan? First of all...makin kite dekatkan diri dengan Allah untuk segalanya...kita akan lebih sedar semua yg ada adalah yg indah...

Ape lagi yg indah? Hehehehe... 'S. But N.A.'
Apekah itu kan...alhamdulillah..masih lagi hari ditemani dengan Mr.F. perlu ke nk senyum ea? Okey perlu la...okey finee...senyum sorang2...ehhh..ehhh...hahahahaha...

Mr.F tiba2 hari ni cakap..'liya bt konsep buang yg keruh ambil yg jernih..sy xlayak pun'...tetibe cikyaa sebak...mungkin die rse die terlalu jahat ke? Tp cikyaa xpenah menghukum die...everyday is too beautiful now...everyday he makes my day...dan pagi ni...tak sangka..setelah bertahun xbecakap..die kejut cikyaa subuh..im touched and suddenly i realised that i have been missing his voice damn much...the time was too long to expect this situation to happen..but it is happening...
Dan tu la reason kenapa cikyaa mengepost di blog hri ni...kehkehkeh...

Kitorg x declare pape..dan dh ade heart to heart talk...bagi mr.F..die xnak relationship but for now...we are more than friend..and he has the intention to make me as his wife but he does not want the relationship makes us control ourselves more and more...he does not want to feel too comfortable with the status so he chooses to maintain this way..he hopes i can wait for him to collect money for both of us...and i just smile..and i said in sha Allah...
For this..i would like to say thank u Allah..thank u to u...i tried to keep ur words and i pray for us...but honestly..i do not teach myself to hope too much...i just accept the situation and i am also ready if anything happen again in future...but hopefully we will end as what u are planning mr.F...

I will try to keep it safely and thanks for this...

Die screenshot untuk cikyaa :D
Thanks awak tuu..:)

~ RaNDom raNDom ~

Hye hye blog ku...miss me ? Kihkihkih..di tengah tengah pagi buta cikyaa mengupdate blog sambil membuang sawang2 yang ada di blog...xyah tnye..cikyaa mmg sehat...hehehe
So wat to write on..hurmmm hurmmmm....mari mulekan dengan students..
Kelas semalam cikyaa exhausted sgt...so untuk pertama kalinyee cikyaa masuk kelas duk diam tnpa celoteh....cikyaa x celoteh? Haaaa pelik gamaknyee..tapi itu la hakikatnyee...nsb baek one period lesson je...semalam cikyaa xngaja sebab duk siapkan action research...sesuke hti je xngaja kan? Hehehe...so msuk kelas lepas cuti seminggu...dn xngaja..dn senyap...membuatkan students sy xkeruan..dan xsemena mena..jejaka kachak aka pakwe kontrak 4 bulan itu berkerumun keliling cikyaa...soklan pertama...'ticer okey ke x ni?' N cikyaa jawab okey sepatah..then diorg bt keje laen..lepas tu mai lgi..'ticer..ticer muke stress ticer duk bt pa?' N cikyaa jawab..bt keje ckit..lepas tu dtg lgi..'ticer btul ke x belaja hri ni..mcm pelik ja?' Cikyaa jawab..ye btul..rehat je hri ni..pastu lame ckit..'ticer..sebenaqnya xbest la ticer diam cmni..selalu ticer duk hingaq smpai loceng bunyi..ticer xseronok ka jmpa kami?' Terus cikyaa ttup laptop n tongkat dagu...'sebenaqnya ticer letih ja.xdak marah pa pun' lepastu sembang ngn diorg smpai abes loceng bunyi..n mcm bese dorg duk maen tab ticer dorg siap bukak utube tnjuk lagu cinta...so cikyaa senyum la sorg2 belashing ade students sweet semua...mekaseh anak2 for making my day..everyday...oh ye..cikyaa siap ade grup wechat ngn students form 3...kahkahkah !

okey..cerita kedua..cuti...
Cuti xde ape yg bes..xsmpat nak jalan2..n cikyaa lepak rumah..bukak keje..tp xsiap2...yg penting..cikyaa pulun lepas gian memasak..beslaa..n ibu dh yakin bgi anak die masak ikan patin..cikyaa bangga riak takabur sume ade..hahaha...nauzubillah..maen2 aja...kihkihkih..durani as usual..masih lgi gedik manja santai...cuti ni jugak cikyaa telah sekaligus habiskan baucer buku...hanya untuk adik2 tercinta...punah harapan aku nk beli mcm2...siyes hancur bederai bile buku diorg semua tu bernilai 200 hengget...oh ye..cikyaa beli quran baru..dan ibu jeles die nak satu...so due quran baru..hehehe...semoga cikyaa masih konsisten wlupun busy skrg...

Okey..cerita ketiga...ibu..dan mr.F
Ibu tu mane sah hidup die nampak cikyaa xsebutbsal kawen...membongakkk bak kate oghang nogori...dan seperti dijangka..terbukak la isu mr.F secara berdua mase tu..so cikyaa malas nak ulas..tpi secara senangnyee...ibu pun entahla ea..die dah mcm terime pulak...tapi skrg ni..cikyaa n mr.F xde sentuh pape isu lgi...tpi at lis one thing from parents aspect xde isu dah...skrg mngkin jus between me and him..as for now..yea..he is always be with me..everyday...and i would say thank u mr.F for ur time although u r busy...but still..we have a hole in between...still we r friends..and i bet either u or me..both are not ready to touch anything yet...cume satu bende yg cikyaa risaukan...ibu mrF tu terlalu tinggi berharap sedangkan anaknye belum tentu setia...how would it be? Cikyaa tak pernah percaya..ataupun beharap...ape yg cikyaa buat sekarang hanya la follow the flow..and what the only thing i hope...u just need to trying damn hard to be u..the only u..so that the 'u' that u have found again will convince me for the situation that is going on...kepada acik aka ibu mr.F...walaupun terlalu awal untuk acik beli tanah and even dah beli pun..and plan for ur son and me..for our house..i hope acik realise that sometimes things do not come as we planned..kalau cikyaa cube lembutkan hati pun..tapi ur son dont really change himself..it will not happen..but for now..i can see him changing..its good for him..and i hope ianya berkekalan...dan for me..i will do my part..everyday praying..

For mr.F..hari ni awak xmsej saya..but i jus need to admit...jauh disudut hati sy..mmg sy ade rase rindu..sebab sy rase mcm mimpi..org lelaki yg sy first syg dlm hdup sy..ade semula dgn sy..after so many years being apart..how can i deny the feeling? But me myself is not being controlled by my heart..but my mind..although u r my first love..if..if..and only if..u spoiled this second chance..no more chance that u will get for the rest of ur life..because in my life..i believe that people deserved a second chance and it is what im giving u now..think and act smartly...:) 

Bye world...

~cuti vs students ~

Hari ni last day sebelum cuti..

Obviously i will miss my sweet romantic form 3 students...

While my friends are talking about being disturbed by male teachers...and getting many young male teachers...

But i am famous with issue that im in love with students...well my friends said..'its rare' but like they always said..'its a common thing for me to look weird'....

U know how blushing u are when u have a really sweet romantic students? Oh yea..i will be a wonderful girl to have more than one 'boyfriend' for these four months..

Its like u dont even care for not having a 'real bf' actually...when i go back from school...i started to miss them..even they have created a wechat group for me..this post referred both for male and female students..but obviously more towards male students...hehehehehehe...

It just great to have them welcoming me each time i enter their class...

Surrounding me each time i sit on the chair...

Checking my phone and asking about my things...

Feel jealous when i talk more to particular students...

Give me some small foods using their own money...

Running from the lab to their class just because it is my class that they will be having next..

Acting out with me when my lecturer was going to observe...

Notice that i am nervous while waiting for the lecturer...

Calming me down by giving me some jokes..

And...give me flower like i am being proposed...

Oh God..they are just form 3 students but i know i am being loved...

They remember what i wore yesterday...

They notice the eyeliner at the eyes...

They notice me exchanging shoes...

They notice u are wearing different colour of lip balm...

They notice my new bag...

They are damn observant and concern..arent they?

each time i have to teach their class..its like i am heading to someone that will hug me...

Each time i have to enter their class...its like i am walking to the people with lots of love...

And even each time i passed by their class and there is a teacher inside the class...they will b waving at me silently..g

Dan yg paling penting...

My boys are taller than me...aura 'bf' tu ade la ckit sebab kite rendah...

Kahkahkahkahkahkahkah...

So..now i am in a relationship with my students and it is official..yippiii~

~ God's Willing ~

Hye morning my dear blog....cikyaa tengah siapkan proposal tpi tibe2 cikyaa headache and nak menaip cnie...sorry la xberape nak tengok sgt blog...nnti cikyaa cuti seminggu tau...lagi la cikyaa lupe blog kejap...kihkihkihkih~

cikyaa malas nak bebel sal proposal tu...ni cikyaa nak citer sal anak kawan ibu cikyaa aka mr.F ni...

haritu die cntct cikyaa selang hari la jugak...sekarang kan..hari2 die contact which cikyaa dont even know die nak ape dan xnak tnye...sebb lau tnye mcm dh thu ape akan berlaku...so mencegah lebih baek dari mengubati..hakhakhak...

So die tegur la kat whatsapp...wadap wadap yaw..tpi die xdela tnye wadap cmtu...die mesti kaver sopan kan...cikyaa xtersentuh pun ngn sopan die tu...jahat cikyaa kan..tapi tu la..pengalaman mengajar...cikyaa macam xde nak hadap die sgt pun...kalau die anta balas la...lau die x anta cikyaa diam la..memang perangai cikyaa cmni pun..cikyaa prefer org tgur dlu...

Tapi kdg2 rase kejam...mungkin sebab die je selalu tegur cikyaa...tibe2 haritu die kate..

"Kalau rase nak tegur n anta chat..anta jela..boring2 ke anta je chat...lau free org balas la" 

Secara pendeknye die nak sruh cikyaa mulekan la conversation sekali sekala...kan? Xyah jawab takpe sebb mmg cmtu niat die...mungkin die rse xsedap die je kene tgur...but i just can say sorry...i cant make it...i prefer to only replying ur message rather than greeting u first...

Honestly i am awkward with the situation...after 5 years we were making our own path..how can u expect me to suddenly be as friendly as u want it to be...

And the most important thing...i dont even feel insecure with anything...u cheated on me several years ago and how can i give back my trust on u? 

Yea..maybe u think we can make it easy because u are the first guy in my life and i am the girl in ur life...but the fact u ever changed...and it might happen again rite?

how can i create a relationship when i feel insecure with u? Or is it because of ur mom? And u confident enough that u know me and my life..so u have no problem with that...maybe...but not for me..in fact although u have not started anything now...i have started to test u..because my opinion now is u cant stay longer being single...and let see how it goes..because if u have changed...u will fight for it...this is thr phase we are seeking for destiny not a temporary relationship...

But i am grateful that he has not touch anything on feeling so far...which i dont hope for it to happen within this short time...because if u dare to touch on relationship or feeling issue...i bet u are ready to bear the shoots..cause this time i will not allow it to happen easily...

2 times having a failure in a long relationship with two different persons..first for almost 3 years with mr.F and almost 4 years with mr.A..plus incapability to have someone that i really into...makes me tired of these things..cause i just stand tougher than before...it is just the matter of losing trust on people...im sorry...

So mr.F...gud luck in ur way to create a gud relationship with me and if u are my destiny that has been destined...in sha Allah im yours...=)

~ Panggilan ~

Hye n selamat petang blog..haaa...cikyaa dah bosan mengadap lesson plan n ape bnde2 ni..tibe2 cikyaa nak update tentang satu panggilan dengan my dearest mommy tadi...jommmm...

Y:assalamualaikum ibu...tongah buek apo?
I:kek tadika ni ha..siapkan makanan...napo tipon? 
Y:oh saje...ingt nak cakap ngn adik...tapi xpela..lupelak sanun weekend...
I:amboii..sampai lupo..pikir apo...
Y:xdo papo...ermm...ibu along nak tanyo..ibu ado jumpo kawan baek ibu tu ko baru2 ni?
I:napo? Tibo2 tnyo...xde pun...
Y:yeke? Sure?
I:napo?
Y:nape suddenly anak kawan baek ibu tu cntct along kt wasap?
I:oh..dio ckp apo yo? 
Y:xdo papo..tnyo kaba..and psal praktikal..and sembang2...2hari lopeh tu dio togo lgi kek wasap..and dio ckp kawan baek ibu tu sruh tnyo kaba...so anything ke ni?
I:kamu dah tebukak hati balik ke? Nak terime die balik?
y:along xde kate cmtu..jus wats happening? Nape tbe2 die cntct along...
I:hritu ibu jmpe kwn baek ibu tu kat kenduri..and kenduri kawen..dio ajak ibu tgok pelamin..ibu ckp la maleh nak pegi..pastu die ajak2..pegi la ikot die..and die tnye psal along skrg..ibu bgthu la along dh xde pape ngn si tutt tu skrg..pastu die ckp........
Y: ckp ape? 
I:die sruh ibu pujuk along...n die pujuk anak die...mungkin sebb tu bujang die tu cntct along kot...
Y:adoii ai..nape lak cmni...
I:ibu rsau die tu anak mak je...balik la dlu...klu die cntct layan mcm bese je..jgn mesra sgt dlu...balik umah dlu bru ckp psal bnde ni...kawan ibu tu beriye sgt...
Y:kisah kitorg lame sgt dh bu...putus dh betahun2 ..xkan die nak expect kitorg kawan balik cmtu je...
I: sebab tu la ibu kate layan mcm kawan dlu...tpi ibu ckp ibu xjnji pape sebb kputusan semua kt along...
Y:okey la..mgu depan cuti..see u next week...

Okey...panggilan yg bt cikyaa rase headache untuk smntara wktu smpai tetido..pastu boleh mimpi mamat tu anta wasap lak..mungek btul la..haihhh...huhuhuhu...

Kisahnye...dlu sebelum cikyaa dgn ex cikyaa...cikyaa ade bekawan ngn sorg mamat ni..dri msuk form 4...smpai almost 3 thun...mamat ni anak kawan baek ibu cikyaa...sekampung..n kitorg bnyk prsamaan...n mmg agak novel la care kitorg kenal..malas nak cter sebb dh lame sgt...nak pendekkan cerite..mamat ni brubah lepas msuk matrik..die kawan ngn gurl laen..pd mase yg same..ibu si mamat ni aka kawan baek ibu cikyaa..mmg nak cikyaa jdi menantu die..stu kg thu bnde tu..tpi bile anak die berubah aka curang la..kitorg break la..tp sebelum die msuk matrik..die mmg bgus sgt..anak sulung jugk..abg yg baek..anak yg baek..jus not a gud lover maybe...n lepas kitorg putus..die mmg kawan ngn rmai girls jugk...semua cikyaa thu..mklumlah..sekampung akak stalk fb..n cikyaa mmg ngn ex dlu tu jela..so bile sebelum ni..kawan baek ibu tu selalu tnye sal cikyaa tpi die xdpt nk kate pape sebb cikyaa msih lg dgn ex cikyaa...bile skrg cikyaa single..n kawan baek ibu tu rse hepi tahap gaban kot..so die sruh ibu cikyaa pujuk cikyaa untuk kawan ngn anak die balik...lepas putus kami mmg cntct as kawan lg...dn mmg every year akan wish besday each other...maklumlah due2 bulan september...skrg ni dh msuk tahun ke 5 kitorg lepas break...mesti la awkward kan? Dan how the mom expect me to trust her son again? So entahla..rse dilemma..tpi nsb baek si mamat tu x hntr chat hari2...setakat minggu lepas bru 2 kali die anta wasap...cikyaa harap die xkan tnye pape kt cikyaa berkenaan hal ni..sebb cikyaa mmg xnak pikir pape lg...huhuhuhu...tapi ibu mamat tu mmg baek..tu cikyaa tahu...really motherly person..cikyaa ngn mamat tu sebaya...so dri kami baby lg..ibu die dh pkir sal bnde ni...sebab die mmg besfren ngn ibu cikyaa...

The only question..perlu ke hubungan lama terjalin balik disebabkan parents? Ayuh la berbalik kepada Allah...:)

~ Its Valid ~

Assalamualaikum and morning my dearest deep corner of the heart aka blog...
Bangun pagi2 cikyaa tibe2 dapat tahu sumting yang selama ni cikyaa pikir2 je same ada akan jadi ke x...dan hari ni cikyaa tahu dh ianya valid olredi....wat shud i say? Nothing but put it aside and keep on walking...
Congratulations and have a bless... =)
With this post i end everything about the matter that i should not write or think anymore..

People will come to yourlife for some reasons...and i will not forget these reasons forever...

Morning world~ have a good day cikyaa~ 
# nak tarik selimut ke nak bukak utube # 

~ LiSteN ~

hye hye blog cikyaa~

mari kita mulekan post2 yang menarik hari ini...

oh ye..hari ni besday daddy cikyaa..mari kite wish ayah hepy bufday..

"jengjenjeng"

hepy bufday to youuu~

hepy bufday to youuu~

hepy bufday to dadyy~

hepy bufday to youuu~

sayang ayah selamanyaaa =D

okey..selain lagu besday tu...cikyaa baru jatuh cinta dengan satu lagu ni..kalau sebelum ni lagu macam kenang nasib kan? haa...ni bukan2...no no no no ~ hekhekhek~

fes cikyaa dgr lagu ni mase dalam kete kawan...tengah menikmati suasana padi yang tebakar kehitaman baq hang...mai la satu lagu ni berkumandang dari radio kawan...

pastu okey abaikan..sebab sekali je play xjatuh cinta sangat lagi...tibe2 kan..malam2 buat lesson plan rumet cikyaa pasang lagu kat lappy die gune speaker..tibe2 dengar satu lagu ni..lagu same tuuuuuu~

cikyaa pun mcm "eh eh eh..mcm pernah ku dgr lagu ni..tapi di mana ya" terus cikyaa terkam rumet tnye tajuk n retis yg nyanyi tu...

ape lagi..ceteka..ceteka..

~ www.4shared.com ~ kikikikiki~

lagu ni xde kene mengena ngn cikyaa pun..same mcm lagu feveret cikyaa tu.."like only a woman can" tu..xde kene mengena..just bagi cikyaa lirik nye meaningful dan kene dengan rentak yang membuatkan jiwa cikyaa merasai perasaan retis yang nyanyi tu..*knon feeling lebeh* lol~

lagu ni pun lirik die best sgt..walaupun xkene mengena tapi bile dengar lagu ni macam boleh rasa kesedihan si teruna tu..tapi padan muka teruna tu jugak la kan...mesti sebok tanye kenape kan? haaa..jomm tengok lirik die sendiri..fahamkan sendiri..cikyaa malas nak terangkan ni...=D

jojojojojommmm~

okey goyang badan selo selo sambil dengar lagu selo ni...jangan hangguk2 kepala lak..xsesuwaii...=D

alamak...exam dh nak abes..kene g kutip paper la...ayuuuhhhh~ 

popeyeee~

~ thanks Allah ~

Hye blog....fes taim ni cikyaa update blog gune tab kitee...wewitttt ckit...hakhakhakhak...so blog ape kabar? Lame x menaip kan...almaklumlah..bile cikyaa dh xbape nak sehat...susah la nak update kan...kekekeke...so tajuk post hri ni...seperti yg tertera di atas...
We thank God for many reasons...for life..for time..for chances..for presents..for luck..for money..for car house and many2 things...but now..i would like to thank Allah...for my tears...

First of all i would like to thank Allah for the instinct that Allah has given to me..

The instinct that leads me to many answers...

The instinct that helps me in analysing something...

The instinct that accompanies me whenever i feel like cursing myself...

The instinct that stopping me from always looking good about people and

The instinct that making me stand strong for now..yea..not that strong enuf when you keep on going to see few things that make u bleeding inside..

The instinct that guides me to the path that i never want to yet it is the best for me...

Secondly i would like to thank Allah for giving me many kinds of signal...signal for doubt..signal for answers..

Mom ever told me..the closer we are to some people..the stronger the tests will be...

Now i am experiencing it..

Am i happy with the situation? Just a hell no okey..

Now it is about the matter of positiving ur heart by avoiding anything and everyone...

Am i angry? Just a hell no okey..

Now its about giving the time a right to decide everything..

Am i needed to fix anything? Just a hell no okey..

Now its about caring ur heart more than anybody and anything..

What should i do? 

Just keep quite..live my life as usual..hide everything that distracting us..cause nobody has a right to complaint on our action because nobody is standing in our shoes..saiz kasut laen2 kan..kekeke 

There is a stage where people will curse their own kindness..when people think that u are easy to be eaten..they will just treat u as what they want..being childish is my weakness..yet my strength..i am strong in my own way..yet deep in my heart..i miss all the previous life...

Being ignorance is my bad side..but now i know..the ignorance that makes me safer before..when i tried to improve on the ignorance...i met many people..get to know more..but it seems tested me more...while during previous time..i can fit in with everyone without having something to think of...when we closed more...love more..and..tested more..

Im trying to get my previous life back..slowly..and hopefully...i can get rid these things faster...

..love.friends.relationship.better..

Hope Allah eases everything

I love everything.everyone.but not for all reasons.it just because i dont jugde something for their few weaknesses but i concerned nore on the good things and deeds that the people have done throughout my life...:)

~ YangLebihKauCinta ~

hye blog :D miss me bebeh? muehehehehehe...cikyaa nak nyanyi lgi...jommm teman cikyaa...=)

Ku cuba untuk jadi yang terbaik

Namun ada dia yang lebih kau cinta

Yang lebih kau cinta

Namun ku akan terus berusaha(yang ni takde dah :D)

Untuk memenangi walaupun ku tahu

Kecewa jua akhirnya

Mengapa tak dapat aku memadamkan

Kenangan manis bersama mu

Bahagia yang aku harap-harapkan

Tak ingin aku rasa dipertandingkan

Sehingga diri diperbandingkan

Untuk selamanya

Ketika cinta ini masih lagi bertakhta

Selagi jiwa ini masih jua ingin dipuja

Katakanlah padaku di mana kekurangannya

Untuk kita bahagia berdua saja

Mengapa tak dapat aku memadamkan

Kenangan manis bersama mu

Bahagia yang aku harap-harapkan

Tak ingin aku rasa dipertandingkan

Sehingga diri diperbandingkan

Untuk selamanya

Bisakah aku jadi yang terbaik (x kan bisa dah)

Kerna ada dia yang lebih kau cinta

Yang lebih kau cinta

SEKIAN =)

~ DeJaVu ~

blog diam..nyanyi je..nyanyi je uhkey ~ =D

aku bukan lemah tanpa cinta...

hanya tidak mampu sendiri tanpanya...

biarkan aku..

menangis kerna derita...

dia hadir mengubatkan rindu...

mengajarkan aku...erti cinta...

namun semua...tidak seindah ku sangka...

dialah yang aku inginkan...

dia cinta yang ku dambakan...

namun semua...hanya tinggal mimpi...

terpisahnya cinta...

aku harus melupakannya...

aku harus memadam rasa...

namun hati...

tidak pernah mampu...

melepas kau pergi....

ooooooooo~

oooooooooo~

dialah yg aku inginkannnn...

dia cinta yg ku dambakannn...

namun semuaaaa....

hanya tinggal mimpi....

terpisahnya cinta...

setelah sedar dari mimpi....

harus ku terus hidup tanpamu....

kini ku pasrah...

segalanya tentang cinta...

# hari ni je entah bape puluh kali lagu ni kat telinga. kbai ~

~ WorDLeSS ~

Assalamualaikum and hye blog cikyaa ~ *cekcek papan hitam* :D
dear blog...i am tired pretending that i am damn okay...tired of giving away everything...and i am tired of everything...

wordless? 
"when I have been silent from typing and saying things...it simply means i am trying so hard to mend my broken heart" 

this is the reason why im wordless for everything. i just dont have any word, phrase or sentence to write anymore regarding the situation. i just need to have my own corner..sweet dark corner..to feel safe from everything rite now. I pity myself more and more..for feeling like a fool.

how can i recover? i am the type of person that will let go the anger within myself...i tend to swallow all the pain by myself cause i never learnt how to put my anger on people...i never learnt how to express what i feel or felt about something...and the weakness is killing me...nobody is at fault but the situation will never let me accept the situation as what it is...the only thing that I can do is be matured in handling the situation..dont let the emotion destroy any relationship..but still..let ur heart wins...we cant fit in the situation immediately...maybe like what i said earlier..just stay at your own dark corner...

meh layan lagu lagi...lagu paling sesuai untuk masa sekarang..:D

popeyee~

~ FinaLLy ~

hye my papan hitam :D 

jangan tanye ape cikyaa rase sekarang sebab cikyaa tak tahu nak jawab cmne..no no no~ namo tnye itew...cume one phrase to say..."my instinct is always my best friend" walaupun dah selalu instinct guide cikyaa ke arah betul..selalu lagi xnak caye instinct..seminggu tau perasaan cikyaa xsedap..mcm org dh nak mati gaya instinct tu..kuikuikui~ malam ni amek kaw...setepek kene kat muke sejajar dengan apa yg dirasakan dan difikirkan...i have got all the answer...so sekarang..jom nyanyi same2 cikyaa sebab cikyaa headache sgt dan xleh nak lelap mata...dari tadi cikyaa dgr lagu ni sorang2 ulang2...

mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku,

mengagumi tanpa dicintai,

tak mengapa bagiku, 

asal kau pun  bahagia dalam hidupmu....

dalam hidupmu...

telah lama ku pendam perasaan ini,

menunggu hatimu..menyambut diriku,

tak mengapa bagiku,

cintaimu pun adalah bahagia untukku,

bahagia untukku...

ku ingin kau tahu..

diriku disini menanti dirimu..

meski ku tunggu hingga hujung waktuku

dan berharap..

rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya...

dan izinkan aku..

memeluk dirimu kali ini saja...

untuk ku ucapkan selamat tinggal

untuk selamanya..

dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja...

kalau rase tak tahu lagu ape..cikyaa pun lupe tajuk..cari la sendiri..okey popeyee~

melayan lagu dan jiwa

~ SiLentLy ~

hye blog..hari ni cikyaa nak bersajak ckit...kalau best sajak cikyaa..blog kene anta kt surat khabar kot dapat hadiah..lalalala~

it smiles..it cries...

continuosly...

but it stays..loving u...

silently...

it smiles..it cries...

continuosly..

but it stays...thinking of u...

silently...

it smiles...it cries..

continuosly...

but it stays...praying for u...

silently....

syyyhhhh~ it got a question...

can u stop it?

it smiles...it cries..

continuously...

but it stays..saying..

"i still loving him silently"

[] i look up his blog everyday...because i miss him...(lebih 5 kali tau kenkadang) kuang kuang kuang~ bile cikyaa bace blog die..cikyaa lepas rindu...walaupun selalu pikir...sape la yang die maksudkan dengan bait2 posts die tu...walaupun mcm menyiksa hati sendiri..thats the only thing that i can do...sit silently...stand silently..read silently...and after all...i just can love him silently...yea..love him silently...selama mane pun kite xberhubung..rasenye xpernah reduce any feeling towards him...and i spent a lot and lot of times thinking about him walaupun xde faedah..kuikuikui~ 

i miss u..badly =(

~ DrEaM ~

hye again and again....

today cikyaa nak cerita tentang ape jadi yesterday...

i had a dream...bukan daydream tau...daydream tu berangan...ni cikyaa xberangan tau..cikyaa mimpi...yes..rase2 cikyaa mimpi ape? 

ofcosh mimpi yang bermakna kan...:D kalau mimpi setupit2 tu bt ape la cikyaa nak rajin menaip kan? okey..ceritanya bermula begini..~jeng jeng jeng~....

petang semalam when i went back from school..i was fallen asleep in the car while my friend was driving...for around 15 mins sleeping..i dreamt of him...sape him...ofocosh la die kan...mr.dabe2...

the dream was meaningful...which maybe i cant forget..because the dream was too damn memorable yet unreachable...impossible to happen...and it was for two times..one was in the afternoon...and another one was at night during the usual sleep...

1. AFTERNOON

"the dream happened at a place..and i didn't even know which corner of the world the place was...and then both of us walking to the place together..and no word came out..until we reached one place that has a jambatan gantung....and suddenly i stopped walking and turned back...but in real situation..i ever told him that I am quiet 'gayat' with any jambatan gantung and i avoided place that has this bridge...so maybe thats the reason the dream was about jambatan gantung....and suddenly he holded my hand..(the best part ever although it just a dream) *gatai skit la* and he said i need to walk through the bridge...and i said i dont want and asking him to just go back...he grabbed my hands and brought me to the bridge and he said let us just walk..its okey..so i holded his hand tightly..and very2 close i think and maybe the blood was not flowing at that time in his hand...hahahahaha...and after some steps he asked me to open my eyes...and i was a bit shouted of scared when we were in the middle of the bridge..but he just laughed..he said..'im laughing at ur face..reddish face' and thats how the dream ended..."

can u tell me how fantastic the dream was? yea..after i woke up..i cried..cried of happiness? HELL NO ! cried of the dream that will never happen...it touched me a lot because i am really hoping that he will be the one that holding my hand in future...but it just will never happen...indeed..*crying*

2. SECOND

"this dream happened last night...this dream was totally different from the first one...i was with him..but different seats...at that time..i was looking at him..he was talking with some people..which i didnt know who the people were..and then suddenly i saw a lot of children..seemed students...running towards him...and i was just observing...but in that dream..he was laughing and smiling...and suddenly i woke up"

# i know i am having this dream because i miss him..not because he misses me...cause i will never happen i think..*laughing at myself* cant u see it dabe2? how my life influenced by u..in just few months..cant u feel it? yea maybe u know the situation..but not the real feeling isn'it? will ur girl love me the way i do? hopefully she will...cause afterall i want the best for ur life...u know how meaningful the dream was and is...its beautiful..its fantastic..its amazing..its sweet...its romantic...yet it will never exist...yes forever..i just feeling like shouting to all hills and seas..so that they know how painful it is inside here...*tunjuk hati dabik2 ckit* 

# maybe i will only have posts about something else in this blog after everything is clear...i am afraid of the truth that i will know..but i must face it...so that i can end the things with pain and come back with fully recovered.hopefully #

tu jela cikyaa nak citer sekarang..nanti kite citer lagi..

popeyee~ 

~ DisaPPointmEnt ~

Hye lapangan dakwatku ! :D

okey hari ni cikyaa xberapa nak gelak..xberapa nak hepi walaupun muke manyak sinyum...

i can say today is the day that indirectly leads me to the superb amazing down of the heart. who knows? who feels? yea nobody. because if someone can feel what i am feeling, they will obviously try to make me out of this misery. 

you know how it feels when each time and everyday u are thinking about somebody that u hope u can be with, suddenly dreaming of him in the middle of afternoon...and sometimes evening..and sometimes at night..???

quote says, when we dream of someone, it means that particular person is missing you. u know what im going to say with this quote? 

*nonsense and go die*

~ because he never miss me ~

hari ni cikyaa has been at my very best to control all my emotions and feelings because of one thing....

the person that i hope i can be with is sweetly in love with someone...situation that i never expected to happen since i remembered him saying that his heart is reluctant to feel such these things...can i say that he is lying me? of course not...he is not lying..but he is just dont know how to say that he will never like me....clear? yes cikyaa..make urself clear..maybe within this short time i will know the answer..and maybe the lucky girl that he is in love with. strong enough cikyaa? u should..for the sake of your heart and yourself cikyaa...listen to his answer and make it as your spirit to move on later....

when i know he has loved someone...it has torn my heart partly...and later on when i know who is the girl...it is completely bleeding...but i know i must face the truth..

in sha Allah i am ready for the truth...and ya ALLAH..please give me all the courage and power to face everything that I might know later on...

# kepada awak, walaupun cikyaa thu hati awak dah ade orang laen..tapi bukan semudah tu cikyaa nak get rid this feeling...macam mana anda nak perasaan anda dihormati..status anda difahami..macam tu juga perasaan cikyaa...its not something easy to remove everything that u like damn much...when u have fallen in love with something that ur heart wants for real...everything that against it is painful...dan sakit tu sampai setiap kali menaip tntg anda...memikirkan tntg anda..airmata tu laju...tpi pada masa yg sama saya berdoa..jgnlah Allah hukum awak sebab airmata sy..walaupun org kate..kalau kite bt org sedeh..akan dtg masa kita kan? tpi cikyaa xnak pun awk sedih ke ape...biarlah awak hepi dgn ape awak pilih..its enuf for me...doakan sy boleh lupakan awak..dan ingatlah walau sesaat..yg ade org pernah sayang awak badly..dan itu cikyaa #

lagu ni la jadi peneman cikyaa sekarang.....=)

jom teman cikyaa dgr same2....

                   

thats all for today..with love for heartlove..=)

~ DabE - DabE ~

ape itu dabe-dabe? kenape tajuk post dabe-dabe? 

okey first question : dabe-dabe aka dabe2 itu adalah ORANG :D

second question: sebab cikyaa nak menulis panjang mengenai dabe2 ni... :D

*cikyaa amek mood sedeh ye untuk entry ni* *betul2 halkum*

walaupun cikyaa tahu insan yang bergelar dabe2 ni takkan pernah bace apa cikyaa tulis ni...tpi cikyaa rasa nak lepas semua apa yang betul2 ada dalam kepala, jiwa, minda, hati dan semua baq hang kannn~ kihkihkih~ dan apa yang cikyaa tulis dan bakal tulis berjela2 ni..semua apa yg cikyaa rasa..dari perspektif cikyaa sendiri..perasaan cikyaa sendiri...jommm mula !

nampak x nama dabe2 tu pelik? sampai korang akan pikir, "dabe2 ni menatang apa" kan? memang cikyaa je yang panggil die camtu..nama sebenar die laen...

nama sebenar die sedap..memikat jantung hati limpa seperti tuan badan la kan...ehh~ *betul2 tudung*

okey cut the crap !

kenape cikyaa tetap panggil die dabe2? sebab nama tu betul2 simbolik untuk diri die...sebab die RARE..when I said RARE...it means 

HE IS UNIQUE IN HIS OWN WAYS =) 

asal name dabe2 ni sebb cikyaa tertypo menaip name die...so lekat la sampai sekarang dabe2 tu...die pernah kate jgn panggil die dabe2 sebab mcm nama KURA-KURA....haaa..sebut pasal kura2..dabe2 ni penyayang orangnye...pernah bela kura2..tpi penyayang terlampau kot sampai mati kura2 die...*sobsss* 

macam mane kenal? dulu 2 tahun lepas cikyaa kenal die jeling2 juling nama je..tak pernah bertegur hye hoi hiu hue sume tu takde...takde uhkey ~ dan mase hujung tahun lepas...real tarikh bertegur tu tak sure sgt la...cume yg mmg start sembang mcm kawan rapat since 1 Januari 2014 la...kire sebelum tu kenal kawan2 malu2 kuhnun2...dalam 3 to 4 weeks sumting sebelum 1 January tu dah tgur2 dah...

*blushing sorang2*

kejap je kitorang kenal kan? tapi guess what ? dabe2 ni gegar hidup cikyaa mcm dah 3 tahun kenal tu...huehuehuehuehue~ syhhhhh~ :D can u imejin..bile kite xpernah tgok die...xpernah thu die sape...tapi die jadi sgt bermakna untuk kita? hari2 kita? senyum tangis kita? haipp~ tibe2 tone sedeh pulak kan...

okey next !

lepas tu sembang punye sembang punye sembang...jadi makin close...dan lepas ni la terlalu banyak perkara yang berlaku...

January 2014 tu merupakan bulan yang sangat bahagia bagi cikyaa...tersangat tu mungkin xleh nak lupe kot..in sha Allah...aminn...walaupun dia selalu rasa diri die tu takde ape2...dan die rase die "wood"..tapi cikyaa rase die cute..."wood vs cute" ! bak kate orang..lau dh suke..sume manis kan? aurmmmm~ hahaha...mungkin sebab cikyaa sendiri ade ciri2 lelaki yg cikyaa suke..dan kawan2 cikyaa mmg suke kate taste cikyaa pelik..sebab tu hati lekat kat dabe2 tu...kuang kuang kuang...walaupun cikyaa baru kenal die kejap...tapi cikyaa nak kate..sape dapat dia untung sgt...nak tahu x kenape? haaa..meh tgok list.:D

• die sweet tapi die x tahu...
• die caring tapi die x perasan..
• die good listener tapi yang ni die sedar la...:D
• die baik n takde tapi tapi la..
• die ni ni ni ni
• die tu tu tu tu
• dan die pandai masak tau..untungggg wife die nnti tau :D

nampak x word "ni" n "tu" kat atas ni ? tu sebab cikyaa xleh nak describe apa yang yaa rase unik tntg die...ape yang cikyaa rase semua datang xdijangka..die ade AURA tu..bukan AURAWHITE sebab die xputih pun rasenye...hakhakhak~ yes aura !

then, makin lama kawan..sembang...cikyaa mule rase sesuatu..yang cikyaa rase dah lame cikyaa xrase...something yang dh lame tertutup...tibe2 rase menyinar mcm ade lampu suluh..kelip2 la kot..romantik ckit..kikikikiki...bile cikyaa sedar cikyaa selesa sgt dgn die...seronok...happy...bahagia...dan jujurnye kan..nak bgthu kan...setiap mase cek handphone nak tgok die ade anta wechat x...kuikuikui..

*ttup muke malu*

sampai tengah2 malam pun tunggu jugak..yela die kan busy..nak anta dulu segan...tapi kan..cikyaa banyak tau perinsekerin wechat2 kitorg yang funny...untuk kenangan sendiri kan..:D

lame kelamaan..cikyaa realised cikyaa dh minat die...bukan minat biasa mcm minat sukan or drama tv...ni minat yang sgt mendalam...macam pre-love...tapi cikyaa bt2 xnak pikir..tkot hati sendiri melarat...plus cikyaa tahu die x anggap cikyaa ape2 pun...jus kawan...haaa...die xde layan cikyaa pelik2 pun..so kalau cikyaa minat n sayang die...perasaan tu dtg sendiri sebab kejujuran die...bukan sebab die layan sweet atau bgi harapan..takde uhkeyy..takdee~ dabe2 ni baek tau :D (sebab tu kite suke..huehuehue)

sampai satu malam ni...cikyaa jujur la dgn die..ape cikyaa rasa kat die...cikyaa ckp sebelum cikyaa praktikal sebab cikyaa xnak beratkan kepala...dan alhamdulillah...die masih tenang..takde la bt kite rase malu for being honest...eh eh..bukan senang tau girl nak bgthu bnde jujur camtu..*membidangkan dada bangga jap*

tapi ketaq baq hang...jari ketaq walaupun konon2 berani :D dan perbncangan okey je...tapi cikyaa salute die...mcm cikyaa ckp..die kan RARE...die masih paham situasi..dan still kawan ngn cikyaa mcm bese...tapi rupenye keadaan tu menyiksa cikyaa sendiri...cikyaa yg gagal kawal diri walaupun dabe2 dh ckup elok layan yaa...dan lepas2 ni...keadaan jadi teruk sgt...tapi semua salah sendiri...

bila dah bulan February...cikyaa rase bulan ni adalah bulan yg teruk bgi cikyaa...teruk tu cikyaa xleh nak describe...cikyaa buntu..lost...heartless..semua bercampur...dan even cikyaa rase mcm dah hilang real diri cikyaa sebab terlalu takot kehilangan dan takleh nak accept fact yang cikyaa xkan dpt die...tapi jujurnya sepanjang cikyaa hidup...tak pernah cikyaa berusaha dapatkan seseorang mcm cikyaa bt kat dabe2 ni....bile hari2 cikyaa berlalu dengan air mata..bangun pagi mata bengkak2..cikyaa doa siang malam..sampai solat hajat tu..kalah nak exam ni..hahaha...ni bukan isu nak tunjuk baek ke ape tau..no no no~ what i am trying to say is..i have really done my best in both aspects...through action and prayer..=) *suwit tau cikyaa ni* hahahahahaha...bile cikyaa nangis2..cikyaa selalu pikir...

"i just want someone like him to be with me in future"...(boleh lgi aminkan kot2 makbul kan) :D

pastu bru2 ni..cikyaa mcm down sgt..down teramat amat sgt sampai cikyaa decided untuk go away from people's life for quite some time...termasuk die..bukan salah die tau...cikyaa bt cmni sebab cikyaa berperang ngn diri cikyaa sendiri..mungkin org xpaham...tapi bile kite terlalu mahukan sesuatu..dan hampir mustahil untuk kite dapat..perasaan tu hancur...ye..memang semua tu kuasa Allah..cikyaa pun tahu...selalu org kate sabar la...redha la...doa la..ye..mmg cikyaa bt semua tu..cikyaa pun seorang Islam....cikyaa sedar bende2 tu..tapi as usual...

"things are easier said than done" setuju tak? :D

so since situ until now...kami dah xbersembang dah...totally jadi strangers...pernah bace kan..."it hurts when a person who has been so closed to you previously and simply becomes strangers today" yes..i know how it feels..cause the feeling is killing me for every second and minutes of my life....kadang2 cikyaa tnye diri sendiri..ape yang bt cikyaa jdi cmni sgt..wat so special about this dabe2...why should i torture my heart more and more..why should i think more and more..why should i cry in my everyday's sleep...and why should i go through all the conversation that we had before...? ! BIG QUESTION MARK !

the answer is simple....because HE IS UNIQUE IN HIS OWN WAY...=) when we love someone..we cant tell people why we love them..and it happens to me...instead until now...yea..=(

panjang kan? haaaaa....ye ade lgi nak taip ni....:D

cikyaa xpernah tahu sape yg ade dalam hati die...sampai sekarang cikyaa xpernah tahu secara detail..sebab die pernah kate..die xnak ungkit ape2 yg dh berlaku..so sebabkan respek..cikyaa xpernah tanye....tapi cikyaa salute sape wanita yg ada dalam hati dabe2 tu..sebab die dpt hati dabe2 sgt kuat..cikyaa xmampu nak cairkan pun..xmampu nak rasa..apetah lagi memiliki kan? cikyaa cemburu dgn wanita tu..sebab tanpa buat ape2..die mampu dapat hati dabe2...nampak kan dabe2 setia orangnye...sebb tu cikyaa kate..sape jdi wife dabe2 ni..untung tau...:D

cikyaa xpernah nyesal hari2 nangis rindukan die...xpernah nyesal hari2 ingat kat die...xpernah nyesal hari2 selalu tunggu die...ye..cikyaa tunggu die..*shuwitt shangat itew ni* walaupun mungkin cikyaa xkan pernah dapat die...tpi cikyaa berusaha dan itulah kepuasan yg cikyaa pegang...dan bayangkan kalau cikyaa dapat dabe2...ya Allah..sujud syukur la kot..xterkate..kekekekekeke..*berangan2 jap*

hurmmmm~ ape lagi ea ? 

oh ye...pesanan untuk encik dabe2 yang sy rindui..kuikuikuikui~ 

kot kot lah berlaku di mana2 hari..dabe2 terbaca post ni...cikyaa nak mintak maaf kat dabe2...mungkin cikyaa silap bile cikyaa bgthu dabe2 tntg ape yg cikyaa rase...kalau cikyaa xbgthu dlu..mungkin kite xjdi jarak cmni kan? I MISS HOW WE WERE BEFORE...badly...=( mungkin cikyaa xkan dpt moment tu dgn dabe2 kan? cikyaa rndu tgok fon pagi2 ade wechat....tghri masak kite sembang sal lauk...bile beli barang cikyaa bebel cikyaa beli ape...bile tgok gusti cikyaa bebel sape menang kalah...bile menyakat kite lumba2 nak menang..i miss everything about u...cikyaa rase mungkin dabe2 dah rase meluat ckit..or annoyed bile cikyaa ikotkan perasaan sgt...atau mungkin dabe2 rase cikyaa terlalu kebudak-budakkan..cume satu bnde yg mungkin dabe2 kene tahu...kuat hati tu tak mampu nak pegang lame...cikyaa xharap dabe2 ajak cikyaa untuk kawen or becinta sekalipun...cume ape cikyaa harap..bile dabe2 kate dabe2 nak bgi cikyaa peluang..to show how i can appreciate u and make ur life better than the previous girl...but now its only IF...IF that holds everything..

sebelum2 ni cikyaa selalu tinggalkan lagu...pesanan...status..tntg ape cikyaa rasa kat dabe2...sebb kdg2 bnde tu melekat dalam hati dan terbeban...jdi cikyaa taipkan bia perasaan tu ringan sikit...tapi makin lame..cikyaa sedar yg cikyaa kene lebih matang...cikyaa memilih untuk tak lagi menyentuh isu perasaan...tapi bukan melupakan perasaan tu...

"sebenarnye apabila wanita itu memilih untuk diam..maksudnya hatinya lebih hebat berlawan di dalam..."

walaupun mungkin dabe2 xkan tgur cikyaa lgi...bukan la bermaksud cikyaa akan lupekan dabe2...cikyaa akan selalu ingat dabe2 yg lahir 13 Ogos...yg suke warna hijau...yg anak sulung dri 3 beradik...yg kurus keding dan cuba nak jdi taff kuhnun2...dan mcm2 la...lepas ni mungkin cikyaa dh xkan cube ape2 lgi secara action...sebab cikyaa akan tunggu dabe2 sendiri ikhlas hati menegur cikyaa dan jdi seperti sebelum2 ni...sediam mana pun cikyaa...cikyaa akan tunggu jawapan yg pasti tu..selagi Allah benarkan...selagi mana Allah tidak merubah hati...selagi tu cikyaa tunggu...dan satu perkara yang pasti...doa yang tidak pernah cikyaa lupe setiap hari...

"Ya Allah...kau bukakanlah hati ............ untuk menerima aku dgn redhaMu ya Allah...kau limpahkanlah hati ........... dgn kasih syg semula...dan kau jentikkanlah hatiNya untuk menerima aku dgn izinMu ya Allah...dan kau akhiri lah penantian aku ini andaiNya dia bukan yg Kau tetapkan untukku...."

# ikhlas hati cikyaa, cikyaa xpernah berdoa dgn Allah untuk seseorang lelaki sedalam ni...dan hanya Allah yg thu ikhlas hati cikyaa syg dabe2...walaupun mungkin ianya hnya sebelah tangan...cikyaa xkan nyesal...sebb rase ni natural...dan sekiranya jodoh dabe2 dgn org laen...jgn lah keraskan hati mcm ni lg..kesian dekat girl tu...berilah girl tu kegembiraan yg die ptut dapat...dan give a new life to ur heart #

Sincerely, with love =)

haaaa..nampak x siyesnye sesi penaipan tadi..yea..kerana kita perlu serius bile keadaan memerlukan..okey chill :D